On expansion

Modern life

Got us walking around in delusory states, constant consumption of artificial intake

Denial

The pain would split me in two if I let it. If I gave it access to my insides. Split me right open. Turn me inside out. Leave me no safe place to hide. I can feel it coming in around me. Closing in on me. I can feel it surrounding everything. When it feels hard to breath. When you turn the music up a little more loudly. All I know is suffering. I don’t want this suffering. All I know is suffering. Not this time. I won’t let you in. I won’t let you win. I don’t want to grieve anymore. I’m so tired of it. My body has dropped down on the floor, as I sit and write this. My body isn’t with me anymore.

I’m sitting on the seesaw of my mind

Back and forth and back and forth for the millionth time

I’ve grown tired of seeing both sides

I’m getting dizzy from the ride

Up and down and up again

Just when I think I’ve landed I get thrown up again

It never ends

Don’t take in so much noise that you drown out your own sound

dirty laundry

Stains all over my clothes

Stains all over my soul

.home

write in the morning.

when your heads still quiet and you’re closer to your heart.

queen of nothing

been a while.

it’s been a little while but I’m finally feeling better. heads a little clearer. not feeling so under the weather.

ya it’s been a little while but I got my shit together. starting to trust myself a little. no more looking out for answers.