The pain would split me in two if I let it. If I gave it access to my insides. Split me right open. Turn me inside out. Leave me no safe place to hide. I can feel it coming in around me. Closing in on me. I can feel it surrounding everything. When it feels hard to breath. When you turn the music up a little more loudly. All I know is suffering. I don’t want this suffering. All I know is suffering. Not this time. I won’t let you in. I won’t let you win. I don’t want to grieve anymore. I’m so tired of it. My body has dropped down on the floor, as I sit and write this. My body isn’t with me anymore.
Don’t take in so much noise that you drown out your own sound
It can’t be found ‘cause it needs to be created
Every lover was a different song
can’t take the garbage out of the human
I’m waiting for the one who notices that I speak in poems and move in colours.
Growth will happen whether you like it or not
When you’re not looking
And still it will grow
Until its undeniable
So choose your growth
Or watch yourself turn into to mold
i’m a pot of boiling water
and I’m spilling over
splashing and crashing
nothing can contain me
there’s a gap in between
myself and me
there’s something I can’t reach
something I can’t reach ‘though it lives inside of me
I can’t get past the gap that’s in between
the space between me and my creativity
your words are feathers.
mine sink ships